Collected Poems of John Holmes
Holmes, John A., Jr.
2002
How do I love thee?
How do I love thee?
Locked out, at the top-floor landing Of five flights of stairs I ran up, Night skylight on shut walls and door, | |
Is thinking into being a seashell, Into iron fence-post in frozen ground, To become fan-shape, become ferrous, | |
And being locked out, being locked in To my un-scallop, non-metal self, Is breathing hard outside your mind, | |
Shaking the door, kicking your ribs, Wanting to see what your eyes look at, Wince with you, exclaim, fall dark | |
When you tumble into slack fears, Be gnawed unfed when you starve, For your reasons dance when you dance. | |
I suppose we are all apart like this, A cold forest of windowless towers, But like them all, I am different. | |
I found I have some windows and a door, And my locks are all on the inside. A few open now, and looking through, | |
I discover that your locks are outside. You are different from the others, too. I touch you, and there is no one but us. | |