Collected Poems of John Holmes
Holmes, John A., Jr.
2002
If I were old [The bitter thought]
If I were old [The bitter thought]
Old men at the end of a life of violence, And like Ulysses home again at last, May sun themselves in senile innocence -- It may be they relive in peace the past -- | |
But I think, if I were old, and over the heat And tumult after wards, and the sudden raid, Done with the challenge flung and the restless feat, And early love, and a harsh trick played, Done with the brawl I swore could never cease. My heart would sink, and not with weight of peace, But thoughts of the younger men I would never break, Of girls too young or nights of lying awake, And the bitter thought it is never to be again. Never, never. Old man among old men. | |