I came to an inescapable conclusion: In my case, at least, the philosophy of ill will and the conduct of crime had worked well to destroy me. My mental, moral, physical, and spiritual health were gone. What remained was pain, futility, and a meaningless existence. My life was empty of purpose, aim, and constructive direction. Having faced the results of crime and ill will, the question became, "What is to be done about it, and what can be done about it?"
The answer, in theory, was simple enough: If social ill will had brought my situation about, then it would require the discipline of good will to reverse that situation.